Confessions Of A Food Allergy Mommy

My son turned 3 years old this summer. We found out about his food allergies when he was just 6 months old, which means we have been living with his allergies for 2 and 1/2 years. Sometimes I can’t believe its been that long, and other times I don’t understand how I still haven’t gotten used to it.

Randsom is allergic to dairy, eggs, peanuts, and tree nuts. He has other non-food related allergies as well, but those are less severe. We found out about his allergies the hard way. I was starting to give him solid foods, and one day I decided to make one of those “healthy pancakes” made from an egg and a banana. After just a few small bites his eyes were swelling up, and he had little red welts all around his mouth. I didn’t understand back then how lucky I was that he didn’t go in to anaphylactic shock. I gave him a dose of Benadryl and he was alright. It gives me a panic attack just thinking about how lucky we were that day.

I took him in to be tested for allergies just a few weeks later, and we were given the news. We would have to change our lifestyle completely. It was easy at first, because Randsom was still nursing most of the time. Now that he is older, it has become so much harder.



Confession #1. 

Epi Pens suck. I’m sure you have seen all the articles circulating on social media lately about the cost of Epi Pens and how inflated it has become, which is causing huge financial strain on families who need them. It’s not an exaggeration, folks. These devices cost several hundred dollars, even after insurance! We were told that we should have 2 Epi- Pens per allergy… for us that would mean a  $2,400 dollar bill every time we purchased them. And keep in mind that they expire, so if you don’t use them (and we hope we never have to) we have to just throw them away after a few months.

They are also a pain to have to carry everywhere. I have a special bag with Epi Pens and Benadryl that I have to remember to bring with me every time we leave the house. It isn’t too big of a deal for me because I always have a diaper bag or a purse with me, but the trouble is that you can’t leave the medication in temperatures that are too cold or too hot. It makes it hard to go out and about during the summer when the weather is super hot and you are worried that the Epi Pens stashed in your bag are going to be ruined by the heat. I also can’t imagine my son remembering to carry them around all the time as he gets older… he is going to need a man bag or something.

I truly hope that someone will come up with a better solution for people with allergies. That another company will start making a product to compete with the Epi Pen and help drive costs back down. We need something smaller and easier to travel with. They day someone invents an epinephrine injector that fits in your pocket, and costs under $100 I will climb to the highest mountain and shout for joy. Seriously.


Confession #2.

It is absolutely terrifying to let your child with allergies go to a play group or nursery without your supervision. Not everyone will understand allergies, especially those who have never experienced them. It is almost impossible to explain to a caregiver the importance of keeping the allergens away from your child. Even just a little bit can be a huge problem, and that is hard for some people to understand. Unfortunately, we have had several bad experiences, where I thought I had made it very clear that my child can’t have snacks that I haven’t approved and that he shouldn’t be around other kids eating… and yet I get called back in to get him later because no one was watching and he ate someone else’s snacks. Obviously my child’s safety is my responsibility, but it’s so discouraging when this happens. It makes it so hard for me to want to attend events like Bible studies, play groups, or anything else where child care in involved. And if I do attend, I end up going to check on him every 10 minutes anyway.


Confession #3.

It’s impossible to go out to eat. Actually impossible. The last time we went out to dinner as a family, Randsom was 1 year old and we had even packed him his own food to eat- and he still ended up getting hives all over his body because there was residue on the table and high chair (which I had wiped down first). It was stressful, sad, and we haven’t done it since.

This is probably one of the hardest parts about his allergies, which probably sounds dumb, but I’m sure other allergy mommy’s can relate. We don’t get to go out and celebrate for birthdays, we can’t join other friends when they ask to go out, and you lose a sense of normalcy. It’s so hard to explain to my child that we can’t go certain places because he will get “sick”. I never want him to feel left out, but honestly that is what happens.


Confession #4

Sometimes you forget, and you feel like a terrible parent. No, I don’t mean you forget your child has allergies and let them eat peanut butter. But sometimes my husband and I do eat things that Randsom is allergic to. If we go and give him a hug and forget to wash our hands, or give him a kiss on the cheek, he will get hives all over where we touched him. Its awful knowing that you are the reason your child isn’t feeling well. Thankfully, we have gotten better about remembering to be careful and this is happening less and less often. But it still sucks not being about to love on your kid when you want to.

I know I am not the first Mommy to experience all these things, and sadly I won’t be the last. Allergies in children are popping up at an alarming rate. No one can really pin point why it’s happening, but I have my own ideas.

I also need to mention that I know it could be worse. It could always be worse. There are many people out there who are suffering more than I could ever imagine, and some Mommies who wish all their child had to deal with was food allergies. I respect and acknowledge that- I know I am SO blessed. With that said, are there any other allergy Mommies out there? How are you dealing with it? Any tips?

As always,

Mommy Little


4 Reasons My 4 Month Old Won’t Sleep



If you read my 4 month update for Emersyn, you would know that she hasn’t been the greatest sleeper as of late. Every night she wakes anywhere from 3 to 6 times… And that’s only between my bed time hours of 10 and 6.

Some nights I can handle the constant wakings… Other nights I cry as much as she does. Mama needs some sleep, ladies! So I thought I would share the top 4 reasons why I think Emersyn has woken up this week…

Someone slammed a door or was talking too loud. And by someone, I mean my 3 year old who likes to run to baby’s room and “check” on her when I’m not looking. This usually happens while I’m in the bathroom, go figure. Guess I should never pee again. But I’d have to give up all the coffee… And that’s just not an option.

Baby is gassy. This girl does some serious tooting, and it’s always a huge effort. Grunting, wailing, and waking from a dead sleep because the air needs out. I do what I can, like burping several times during feelings, and bicycling her legs… But it always seems to happen at night.

Baby knows I just got all snuggled under my covers. After spending the last 2 hours nursing, rocking, and singing I was finally able to lay her down without waking her up. I am just dozing off and she gets “the feeling”. She knows that I’m comfortable. She knows I’m not thinking about her. She knows I am ready to sleep. So she MUST wake up. Just in case I miss her. She is always looking out for me like that.

She thinks we might be doing something fun without her. I think she has FOMO. Apparently, in her mind, exciting things happen at night that she needs to be awake for them. Nothing is better than a wide eyed baby at 2:30 in the morning. She always makes sure to be extra cute and giggly so that I don’t completely lose my mind.

And those are the reasons my baby isn’t sleeping. I know this is just a phase, and 13 years from now I will be dragging her out of bed because she is sleeping in too late again… And let me tell you, I will enjoy every second of that sweet revenge.

I need a nap,

Mommy Little

Emersyn Claire: 4 Months


This last month has been a roller coaster ride!
At least for me. I’m sure Emma feels great.
She is a drooling machine lately, I really think she is working on some teeth! Nothing has popped through yet, but I hope they do soon because girlfriend is cranky. She is waking up a lot at night again as well. These last few nights she has been up every. single. hour. I try nurse her and put her back to sleep, but usually she isn’t having it and just wants to be held. I’m hoping this ends once the teeth come in.

During the day she is a pretty happy girl as long as someone is talking to her or she is being held. She loves her face to face time, and I always get big smiles when I sing to her. She is rolling from tummy to back, and is SO close to rolling from back to tummy! She also scoots around in circles if she is on her play mat. I feel like she is a lot more active than Randsom was at this age. She keeps me busy and I love her to death!


Weight: 16 pounds and 6 ounces which is 90th percentile.

Height: 27″ which is 98tn percentile!







Can’t wait to see what next month brings!

Mommy Little

25 Thoughts on 25 Years

Guys. I turned 25 at the end of July and I can hardly believe it!

I have been alive for a quarter of a century (sounds older now, doesn’t it?)

I’m at the point in my life where I’m supposed to be an adult, and I don’t even know how I got here. Some days I still think I’m 17- I definitely feel 17 most days. So just for fun, I wanted to share 25 thoughts on being 25!


  1. I’m a quarter of a century. I know I said that earlier… but seriously. Think about that for a second.
  2. I have been married for 4 years!
  3. I have 2 beautiful children. I never would have guessed I’d be a mommy of two by the time I was 25!
  4. Drinking coffee is no longer for fun, is a necessity.
  5. I wear my hair in a “mom bun” a lot more than I am proud of. I guess two kids will do that to you.
  6. Putting on real clothes is a lot of work. I love my sweat pants. And they love me.
  7. I pull all nighters, but not for fun anymore. Kids will do that to you.
  8. I’ve gained some weight, and it isn’t the end of the world. I was so worried about my weight growing up, now I’m worried about what my kid just ate off the floor.
  9. I have gained a deep appreciation for area rugs. They really make a space feel like home.
  10. I don’t always need to wear makeup. Who has time for that?
  11. I NEED alone time. Even if its just for a few minutes hiding in the bathroom. Having some peace and quiet.
  12. My mom is one of my best friends, I wish I wouldn’t have appreciated her more when I was living at home.
  13. Highschool friendships really can last a life time.
  14. Changing lighbulds is not my strong point. I haven’t seen whats really in my closet in almost a month….
  15. I didn’t like to cook when I was 20. I still don’t like to cook at 25… I was hoping this would change. So was my husband.
  16. Sometimes I have to say no to fun things, because I just can’t cope. And that is OK. I don’t always have to make it to the play group or Bible study. Sometimes I just need to stay home, in my pajamas and mom bun.
  17. Pay your bills. On time. All the time. It will affect your credit and someday you will want to buy a house and it will matter.
  18. Sometimes I like to trick my 3 year old into coloring, so that I can pull out my grownup coloring book and join him.
  19. Birthdays get less exciting every year. And less people remember them.
  20. I love shopping online. I used to be scared to order things without trying them on… now I’m more scared to take my kids into a store…. let alone a tiny dressing room.
  21. Flying still freaks me out. Another thing I was hoping would change.
  22. I like nice things. I don’t need a lot of things, just a few really nice things.
  23. I LOVE naps. Like, I really love them. Especially when my kids take them.
  24. It’s not all about me. Wait, what? My husband and my family come first, and I’m not always great at that but I am realizing it more and more as I get older.
  25. Being 25 does not make me feel like an adult. Waking up and realizing I’m a wife and a mom is still so crazy to me!


Here is to another year, I know it will hold more than I can imagine. I can’t wait to see what God had planned for me.

Mommy Little

Emersyn Claire: 3 Months


Well it looks like I have a 3 year old AND a 3 month old. I still can’t wrap my head around that some days.

Emma is such a smiley baby girl. She loves when people (mostly her brother) look at her and talk. She is cooing all the time, which is absolutely adorable. Several days ago, she gave us her first real laugh! I was giving her kisses on her cheek and she thought it was hilarious.

She is sleeping alright, waking up 2 times at night to eat. She still takes one really amazing 3 hour nap in the afternoon, along with a lot of short naps through out the day. Nursing is going well, she is eating like a champ! And mommy’s milk supply has finally leveled out, making things easier on both of us.

She is doing better with tummy time, and I swear she is close to rolling both from tummy to back and vise versa. I know its early, but she is a mover and a shaker! Which brings me to another thing, she hates holding still when she is awake! She loves kicking her legs and waving her arms all about. Heaven forbid she be left in her bouncer for more than 5 minutes- she can’t stand sitting in that thing anymore.

She is also drooling everywhere! I can’t help but think she is teething, with all the drooling and fist biting she is doing these days. I will keep my eyes open for some teeth.

We love Emersyn SO much. She is such a huge blessing to our family.










Mommy Little

5 Must Have Items For When Your Kid Gets Sick

Does anyone else go in to straight up panic mode at the sound of your child coughing or sneezing?

I know I do.

I’m constantly afraid someone is going to get sick, and eventually they do. This week, my son and my husband both caught a nasty cold. When I have sickies in my house, these are the items I always reach for! Now it’s time to hunker down and ride out the storm. Hopefully Emersyn and I can avoid catching all these germs.

PicMonkey Collage



This might seem obvious, but I can’t be the only one who is always out of coffee when I need it most. And let’s be real, the last thing you want to do is run to the store when you have sick little ones. I try to always keep a few K-cups hidden in our medicine cabinet, that way if I’m up all night with a sick kid (or husband) I will have “fuel” in the morning to get me through the day. These are my current favorite!

Hand sanitizing Spray

Picking up used tissues, getting sneezed on, and just generally touching yucky things is the norm when kids are sick. Obviously I don’t always have time to run to the sink and wash my hands, and that’s why I love hand sanitizer. I recently ordered the Honest Company Sanitizer Spray and I am addicted! It smells great and it’s so easy to keep close and spray when I need it. It’s also great to douse the kids in, because it doesn’t have any yucky chemicals and won’t drip everywhere before they rub it in. Go get some- you seriously need it.

Forhead Digital Thermometer

My amazing mother in-law gifted us one of these bad boys when my son was born. I thought it was silly, and that a regular one would get the job done. I was wrong. It is so much easier to quickly run this across a sick/squirmy toddlers forehead, than it is to tackle them and try to get a reading on a regular thermometer.


The concept is gross. You’re basically sucking the snot out of your kids nose. Thankfully, the snot never actually gets anywhere near your mouth. This is the best thing for when your kids, especially babies, are congested. Also, have you tried to explain to a two-year old how to blow their nose? It’s impossible. I can not recommend this enough!

A Humidifier

I didn’t purchase a humidifier until this year. I grew up having my mom put one in my room whenever I was sick, but it never dawned on me to do the same for my kids. A humidifier helps put moisture back into the air, which in turn helps loosen congestion and keep your skin/nose/throat from getting too dry when you are sick. I have a small one that I can move easily from room to room. Bonus, you van throw in a couple drops of essential oils, and it’s basically a spa!

Bonus Items

I keep a box somewhere in the house (out of reach of little ones!) with Tylenol, tissues, band aids, Benadryl, my NoseFrida, digital thermometer, Vic’s vapor rub, and rags (for the yucky things you get to clean up). Or just store it all in a designated throw up bucket. Kill two birds with one… bucket.


I dread being sick and having sick kids, but at least I know I’m prepared for when it inevitably happens! What do you keep on hand for when your family is sick?

Stay healthy Mamas!

Mommy Little



Today was…

Today was a hard day.
Honestly, it was one of the most difficult parenting days I’ve had in a long time. If you are a mom, you know what this day felt like. I woke up at 5 AM with a cranky toddler. I spent the morning mediating tantrums, downing a pot of coffee, cleaning up messes, and generally being terrorized by a 2 year old. My time was spent dreaming of the glorious nap I was going to sneak in when Randsoms own nap time came around… only to have him skip that nap, because falling asleep in the car for 5 minutes apparently rejuvenates him completely.

Today I was a bad mom.
I confess that Randsom watched a few too many episodes to Curious George, ate a bunch of unnecessary snacks, and hardly played outside even though the weather was perfect for being outdoors. I was impatient, snappy, and became illogically resentful when Randsom wouldn’t nap. I was selfish and wanted “me” time away from all my mommy responsibilities.

Today I was reminded how lucky I am to have hard days.
I am constantly remembering the heartbreak and uncertainty that my family and I faced during my pregnancy and delivery with Randsom. God poured out His mercy and love over both Randsom and I, and He has never stopped. God has blessed me with the privilege of parenting and raising up His child, and even though I do a crappy job most days, God continues to pour His mercy over me. I had doctors tell me that my son was going to die; but today I got to struggle through ordinary parenting struggles just like every other parent.
What an absolute gift to have my son here to wake me up early, throw tantrums, and terrorize me with in terrible two antics.

I am blessed.
Mommy Little